It says in the Bible that the truth will set you free. After going through what I've been experiencing over the past few weeks, I think that the truth makes you angry! I believe that the truth does set us free from what sometimes are unseen bondages. I think this works on so many levels. I can only speak from my own experience.
At the moment, I am going through a process of discovering more about myself, my past, my motivations and my deepest fears. I guess I can see the freedom that will come, but at the moment I feel angry. I feel angry because a lot of what I'm experiencing number one has lay under my conscious radar for so long and two, that in so many cases, I acted apon these un-revealed forces and made choices based around them and due to them.
I kind of like the feeling of anger as well. I think in the past I have been afraid of being angry. My personality shows that I don't like to offend, I don't like others to be angry with me and if they are, does that mean we don't have a healthy relationship. But I'm starting to see that anger can be a great motivator in and of itself. I don't believe it is healthy to live in anger. In the same way, it's not healthy to dwell in a perception of constant bliss.
My anger at the moment is such a strong incentive to move past this state. I don't for a second want to be in a permanent state of anger, but maybe it's useful to drive me forward, instead of living in fear which tends to bog me down in the past.
BLAH, hopefully thhis is making sense.
Till I find my poncho...
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