Just be....

I haven't posted for a couple of weeks and there's probably a couple of reasons for that. Firstly, I have been riding the proverbial roller-coaster of life which includes so much emotion, thought and action. Sometimes there is just not enough energy to articulate what is going through my head and other times there is just no words for it. And secondly, I try to make a point of not simply posting things for the sake of it.

I've been thinking a lot lately of possibly going back to study next year. I've also been thinking of travelling next year. And I've also been thinking about buying a flashy computer which would enable me to record my music at home more easily. Options!!!

The study thing is curious. I have for a long time had adverse feelings toward studying. To start with, I'm not exactly sure what I want to study. There are a few options that I've looked at, but I'm still mulling over them. In my younger years, I never really found study all that easy, not that it should be either. But wth my vision impairement, everything seemed to take double the effort and triple the time. And of course, like this blog, I don't want to simply study for the sake of it.

Travel is an interesting one as well. For so long I have fought the temptation to travel. Throwing around all kinds of excuses such as; it's too expensive, ethical reasons, sight reasons, etc. I have weighed up the pros and cons of it and now I am probably straying toward the side that it might be a good idea. To just get out of town. To put oneself in another culture and experience life with new lenses. But again, I am still thinking.

The third option I have is the musical option. This one seems to be the most attractive at the moment. To have the capacity to plug in and record my own work at home would be great. I have the desire to produce my own music, the way I want it produced and to learn the art of recording. We shall see in due time.

I have said to friends in the past that as humans, we are not designed to be productive robots, but to be faithful to who we are, and to be faithful to our Maker. And it seems at this time I could use a dose of my own advise. Funny how we can dish out handfuls of wise words, but when it comes to ourselves, we tend to put on the blinkers and measure ourselves by a whole new set of standards.

Anyways, that's all for me today. I will try and remember my own words this sunny afternoon.

Till I find my poncho...