Stuck in a moment.

This is my first post for some months now and I'm feeling a renewed sense of freedom within myself and within my writing. About twenty minutes ago I deactivated my Facebook account, which happened quite spontaneously, but the thought of doing so had been floating around for a while.

In a time when I am in deep thought about life, vocation, faith, relationships and trying to read as much as I can within as diverse framework as possible, I was finding that the facebook phenomenon was tricking my mind and persuading my thoughts in ways which I believe are unhealthy.

My mind, as strong as it can be at times, is also prone to looking at others' lives and wonder why mine isn't the same. The temptation to slide into comparison mode is too easy for me at present.

I am, most of the times, disturbed by the amount of mindless dribble that ends up on the forum and the amount of time I was spending on it, or anticipating a response from something I had posted. An almost narcissistic cloak was draped around me waiting for a large number of "Likes" or "Comments". I can understand why the very new (in terms of history) social media is going to and more than likely is right now, impacting our culture's psychological health.

So I am left wondering, if I distance myself from this media which I have generally held a love/hate view of, what can I do, or rather, what can I do in place of it? And with these questions I believe the fundamental question of why I was on FB in the first place needs to come into play. This question haunts me much like hearing the question, "why did you start smoking in the first place?" Smoking and Facebook, both addictions, I feel work on similar parts of our person. They can make us feel good about ourselves. Knowing now what we know about cigarettes, will our culture in twenty years know the harmful effects of such mediums and start telling us to 'Quit!'?

Well for now, I simply wanted to put my feet back in the water. As I am currently off the world's largest social networking site, I may be less heard and seen and with this I am kind of glad.

This is my page with my thoughts, but as always, I welcome feedback, comments or whatever providing respect is the atmosphere in which these are offered.

Till I find my poncho....